Matt couldn’t recollect the last time he’d felt as tranquil, certainly not since before the Dallas incident. He’d had sex numerous times since arriving in Sirius, but it had always felt forced, confined, as he had to hide his true self from his lovers. He had to hide or risk driving them away in fear of revelation. With Jill, it felt natural, right. He held her close and felt her naked flesh warm against his.
“I think I could fall in love with you, Mr. Dales.” She smiled.
He wanted to tell her that he already had fallen for her. Instead, he could feel the barriers start to rise, forcing her out. “I’m not a safe person to be in love with.”
She planted a kiss so firmly on his lips the barriers dissolved under its passion. He kissed her back. “But if you are willing to give it a go, I don’t know what kind of future I can promise. Police relationships are turbulent at best.”
“I’m not asking for a future. Just try not to protect me to death.” she giggled and kissed his chest. “I know that as long as I live, I want to be with you.” Her eyes pleaded.
He stared at her face lying on a pillow, smiling contently. Her skin pressed snugly against his. He felt at peace.
“Let’s go away next month.” She said.
“Go away? Where?” the familiarity echoed in his mind.
“Yeah, to the new resort they opened up on the coast. It’s a new dome for recreation. It’s for the ritzy types, but I know a person who can get us a reservation for a week. They allow you to fish.”
“Sounds expensive.” Matt heard himself say. “Detectives don’t make that much, neither do teachers.”
“We can swing it,” she smiled. “If we only had to worry about paying for one apartment between the two of us.”
“Are you suggesting…”
“Move in with me.” She kissed him hot and passionate. “Or I’ll move in with you.”
“I… that might not be a great idea…I have trouble with relationships.”
“I know you, Matt, better than anyone in the world. Trust me. We’ll make it work.” she snuggled up tight. “Just let me hear you say yes, even if you don’t mean it. Everything else we can work out.
“Okay, yes. After all, this is over, and if you still want a damaged old and most likely former again detective. Then I’m all yours.”
“I know,” she said softly and drifted off to sleep in his arms.